Induction Today

Today is the day that we've been anxiously awaiting for the past 39 weeks. Megan Claire is scheduled to arrive today.

We've been through a hard few months with my husband moving and living 12 hours away, G and I staying behind to finish my work year, and to get our house sold, but there's an end in sight and that feels so good. I didn't think these days would actually arrive.

Yesterday was a normal work day for me (my last until September), and I was so excited to get home and spend time with DJ and G, as a family of three, but also with my mom, stepdad, and grandma. The evening was fairly typical as well.... I took a nap on the couch, we had dinner, finished our 'to-do' list, put G to bed, and watched a movie.

I actually slept well last night and G never crawled into our bed! (She's had to sleep on our floor since my parents are here.) She's actually still asleep on the floor. I woke up a little before 5, because I just couldn't sleep anymore and I knew that my alarm would be going off soon.

It hit me today that I'm going to be the mom of two little girls. That God has entrusted me with their lives. It's pretty overwhelming for that reality to suddenly hit and to know that there is no way to turn back now.

I went ahead and took a shower and my cell phone rang two times- who the heck would call me at 5 am? I refused to answer the phone since I was soaking wet and didn't want to jump out of the shower, and they finally left a voicemail. Once I did get out of the shower, I checked my phone & didn't recognize the number. Upon listening to the voicemail, I quickly realized that I was going to be slightly disappointed- It was the labor and delivery unit letting me know that they had zero rooms. They were booked with people who suddenly decided to deliver last night and still hadn't delivered this morning. They told me that I needed to stay at home and wait for someone to deliver and a room to be prepared.

I woke up DJ who was completly dazed, and just told him to stay in bed. I knew there'd be no way that I could get back to sleep, since I had just taken a shower, so I went ahead and got half way dressed.

So, here I sit. I should be on my way to the hospital right now, but i'm impatiently waiting on the birth of someone else's child, so mine can have her turn.

On the bright side, i'll see Gretchen this morning. I'll get to give her a hug one last time and let her know how much I love her and how much she means to me. She probably won't care, especially since I promised she could watch Snow White today! But, I will.

Most mothers worry about if there will be enough room in their hearts to love two or multiple children. That's never been my worry. I've always known that there would be. My biggest fear is how will this affect Gretchen. Especially with all of the changes we are going through right now. I'm more confident now than I was a few weeks ago that she'll be okay and that she'll adjust to the change fairly well.

So, here I wait. If you're still reading this, say a prayer and wish us luck that M will be born smoothly with no problems, and that she'll be healthy, and that G will adjust well.